Milestones

Throughout our lives we have many milestones. Some go so far back that we don't even remember them; the first time we smiled as a baby, first time we rolled over, first tooth, first words and our first steps. I am sure at each of those milestones our parents celebrated in their own way and for most of us it was likely written in our baby book for us to look at many years later. I have a baby book that chronicles those events and it even has a snipit of hair from my first haircut but once those baby years were over that book ended.

Milestones were chronicled differently as a grew older. It was pictures for the first day of school or the new clothes for school. It was report cards sent home to chart my progress or laziness in school. It was the stars on the chores chart that hung on the fridge reminding you of how you need to help out at home. It was graduation pictures showing that you made it through the first part of school, the first 12 years at least and who knows how many more years you would spend in post secondary education.

This week I have a milestone; I will be turning 38. I think I need to celebrate that I am not quite yet 40! But seriously, some where along the passage of time I misplaced the book that would chronicle these milestones. Don't get me wrong, I still have my baby book and graduation pictures but I don't have photos of my wedding or a baby book to tell of my children's milestones. It has really set in this year when I think about my birthday and more importantly my age how much I have missed in life. I have watched my brother and cousins get married; I have watched them have children; I have even watched my friends children grow up and the whole time secretly wishing I had the same.

I am blessed, very blessed to have amazing friends and family who love me. There is still however something missing, there is still a void.

One day I hope to have a medium in where I have chronicled milestones instead of years going by where nothing has changed.